Leaving home with heavy heart

Dear babies,

All the while i am looking forward for a business trip. When i get the opportunity, without second thought i accept it. However, after awhile after i settle down, my inner heart kept asking me whether should i go or not. After checking with daddy, he very supportive, so i continue with it.

In less than 2 weeks time, to be exact, in 10 days time, i will be flying to Limerick and will only be back home after 24 days. I never be apart with both of you for that long, and i never let both of you of my sight for more than 24 hours. This gonna be a big challenge for me.

For this round, daddy will need to do all the exam revision with both of you as keke's exam fall on the week right after i left. As for meimei, the exam is on end of Oct, so it depends, either during mummy's final week in Limerick or the week right after mummy reached home.

I was thinking how to tell both of you about my long duration business trip, however, daddy informally inform both of you and as expected, both of you do not show any supportive reaction.

Keke , you told me that you will definitely sad as you wont be able to see me for so long;

Meimei , you asked me why can't i only go away for 1 or 2 days.

Babies, of course,  i also wish that the business trip can be shorten. Mummy hope that both of you will listen and corporate with daddy while i am away.

Also, for this year, i will missed the birthday celebration for three of you, keke, meimei and daddy.

Kaitlyn first time to dentist for filling

 

Poor you! While all of us enjoying our dinner in the restaurant, i noticed that you suddenly stop eating and your eyes become so watery. As soon as i asked you what happened, i can clearly seeing tears dropping down on your both cheek. You tried to hold your tears very hard though. You kept sobbing and told me "toothache"

Actually, we brought you to dentist last month, however, due to gum swollen, dentist advised not to do anything til the gum back to normal. Few days later, you told us no more pain, and we just forget about it. Til last night, the pain decided to visit you again.

After dinner, koko asked for McD McFlurry, and initially you told us you don't want any. However, as we approaching the McD ice cream kiosk, you said you are ok and requested a cone type ice cream. Happily, you finished up the whole ice cream all by yourself . Thought everything is over.

NO NO NO!! It's not the end yet. You were up all night crying from toothache, til finally daddy decided to give u paracetamol to ease the pain. Luckily it helps to make you sleep well til tne next morning.

The next morning you wake up freshly and say no more toothache, however, we do not want to take any risk. We told you that we will bring you to dentist at night, and to our surprise, you agree with our plan. ** That really make things easier, at least we no need to create story to make you go to dentist**

I guess one of the reasons you are not afraid of going to dentist is due to i used to bring you along whenever koko went for this dental checkup.

Due to it's emergency case, thus, we don't have prior appointment.Daddy dropped us at dental office around 7pm and we just waited for less than 10 minutes for our turn. No fuss from you when we get into the treatment room. Happily you corporate with the dentist. And in about 10 mins time, we are DONE!!!! Bravo my girl!!! Thumbs up !!!!

First time giving speech on stage

When i being told that my girl and another boy will represent their class giving introduction speech during mini concert, i was so worried. True enough, feedback from teacher is she can't remember the speech even though it's only few sentences. I tried to make her recall what are those sentences but she will stop after she introducing herself. **slapped forehead** However, her partner, the other boy can remember the script very well.Since this is their first time standing on the stage delivering few sentences to so many eyes and ears, their thoughtful teacher decided to pair them up instead of only letting one of them delivering the introduction speech.

On the day before the mini concert, finally my girl can clearly delivering the entire speech for me. However, i still worry as she never has the experience of giving speech in front of so many people. I kept telling her that tomorrow she will stand on the stage and many people will be sitting and standing in front of her. I am not trying to scare her, but i want to give her some hint so that she will not get shocked when she's up on the stage.

Finally..the day has come!!! We reached Penang Times Square around 7:05pm, 5 mins late per the supposed assembly time. However, knowing that Kaitlyn wont be performing til after lantern parade, so we slowly walk towards the assembly area. The area was crowded by parents and performing kids. I helped to tie up Kaitlyn's hair before teacher start to put veil and make up for her.

 

For this year, Kaitlyn and her classmates will be presenting an Indian dance with title "Naandiya". Kaitlyn and one of her classmate gave a short introduction on the title of their dance before they start performing. My heart was pounding when i saw my girl walking towards the mic. I worry that she may have stage fright and forgot all her speech, but seems like i over-worried, she in fact deliver the speech well. BRAVO!!! 

And it's not the end of my worry, next will be the dancing time. Again, i worried that she will forget the steps but again...i under estimate my girl. She did very well in the dance !! I feel so relief as soon as the dance finished.

It's really a great achievement for my girl, and i feel very thankful to all the teachers for giving her an opportunity to deliver short speech in front of so many people. This indeed can help my little girl to build up her confidence.

Go or No Go???

All the while when i heard of daddy has business travel opportunity, i will feel that he is so lucky. He used to travel almost once every year. After looking forward for so long, finally, i am being given an opportunity  going to Limerick, Ireland for job assignment. And the duration is 3 weeks!!!

When i heard of this, i was so excited and at the same time has a mixed feeling. Shall i go or no go? I had missed out few business travel opportunities in the past, and this time i need to break the curse! When i told daddy about this, he is very supportive. And i told him my major concern is whether will he be able to handle the 2 of us for 3 weeks, and he kept assure me that "no worry, everything will be fine!" Hearing this, i still have mixed feeling as i never leave both of you out of my sight for so long.

Per the current plan, i shall be away from home from 2nd week of Oct til week 4 of Oct, also means that i will miss the 3 of yours birthday celebration. But well, like what daddy said, opportunity will not knock on my door everyday, so if being given the chance, i should take it and go all the way!!

Thanks daddy to be so supportive !!! 

心疼妳的成熟

一直以来，女儿会比儿子比较善解人意，也比较会看我脸色。我以为即将换工，可以放慢脚步，慢慢的将手上的工分出去。我竟然那么天真。我还天真到跟女儿讲我会有更多的时间陪伴她。

我昨晚，做到忘我境界，竟然忘了每个星期四女儿有上额外的英文补习，所以在学校的午睡时间会比平常短。到我觉悟时，女儿已是很累很累。我就问她为什么没提醒妈咪自己很累。让我没想到的回应是，五岁的女儿说，“妈咪，没事，没什么啦，我自是很累，但我看到妳在忙着工作，我就没吵妳”。天啊！！！女儿这句话，她的出发点是要安慰我，但是，她的成熟想法就有如一支很尖很尖的针，深深地插入我内心深处。我竟然那么的粗心，没察觉到女儿很累，还以为她在享受卡通片。仔细回想，我记得，我看到女儿一直在不停地换电视节目台。那就是她发给我的讯号，“妈咪，我很累”！

我真的是个很不称职的妈咪。:(
女儿啊，妳可不可以别那么懂得替妈咪着想，有时，妳得狠很得挎我一巴，让我清醒点！！

The contradictory me

My boy very sticky to me, and sometimes, i really wish that i am tough enough to turn him down and leave him alone to train him to be more independent.

For unknown reason, he cried when we drop him to daycare, and this lasted for almost 1 month until i almost wanna seek for child psychiatrist's help. And thank goodness, he decided to end the crying all by himself. And now, he is back to his happy go lucky behavior.

Yesterday was his school's sport day and this is his first time attending sport day. He being selected by his teacher to represent the class to participate in the game. When he told me about this, i am as excited as him, and in fact, i am more excited than him, LOL!  I applied leave few days before the event.

On Monday, Kelvin come back and tell me the schedule for the next day, and he said in fact, i an just drop him at USM Stadium and pick him up around 11:30am. In fact, he doesn't expect me to be there to see him participating the game, When i heard of his plan, suddenly i had a mixed feeling, happy and sad. Happy that my boy is now feeling comfortable to be with his friends and school teachers; happy that my boy is slowly getting more independent; sad that my boy is growing up; sad that my boy soon will no longer need me to protect him.

At the end, i told him that i would like to be there to see his participating in the game, and also i already promised aunty Doreen that i will be there, so i need to keep my promise to be there on his sport day. Delightedly he said he is happy that i can be there. Actually, not only me, daddy and also mei mei also went to USM stadium to give him our morale support.

So, should i feel happy or sad when i see my boy getting more independent??? 

oops...teeth in the rice

You kept complaining that one of your teeth is kinda shaky and you wonder when it will drop off  by itself, and we kept assuring you that eventually the milk teeth will fall of by itself, it's just matter of time.

While you are having your dinner, i went to do the laundry as usual, and suddenly you came to me with some blood in your mouth, telling me that you teeth dropped while you are biting the meat. Luckily you are not scared by the blood, i guess could be we brought you to dentist for few times, and you are not afraid of seeing blood in the mouth. Quickly i asked you to seek for daddy's help to gargle salt water to clean your mouth. Happily you told us that finally your shaking teeth is out. LOL!

Bravo, my boy!!!